Thursday, January 3

Balance and Chaos Must Kiss


Minimalism can’t quit trying to smile itself into my world before getting kicked toothless by my determination to never get rid of anything, which brains (and slightly nutty delusions) agree I’ll surely find use for, soon…  

thinning my closet
to keep only what I need—
who am I kidding?

Once, a nun who moonlighted (daylighted?) as a language teacher—and who loathed my Muse’s habit of scribbling on the margins of notebooks and on the hems of skirts—told me that “A neatly kept notebook is a sign of human angelism.” I didn’t say, Sister, I am wicked good without wings you can not see. Also, I delight in my genitalia. But I was thinking it…      

journaling
in wild ink, my soul shall be
deeply cleansed

My flesh and I work hard at the art of keeping a healthy house. I shun junk that hurts my gut and heart and thoughts, that provides instant gratification while threatening the sharpness of my grin. Still, I dare stir a teaspoon of danger (or even 3) into the yummy darkness of my morning brew…     

must toss the sugar!!!!!
brains speak rather cleverly
while hearts laugh madly

I believe in the wisdom of brains. Every year, I let thoughts scrutinize sweet pleasure. Then, a not-so-wee voice inside my skull (the one that understands balance and chaos must kiss deep and long... to be happy) summons the might and wit of my Pratchett: Hm… “Five exclamation marks, the sure sign of an insane mind.” And I reach for sugar.  


the wee notes
- written for I Don’t Do New Year’s Resolutions, But… (week 4 of Doing It Alone Is Quite Yummy, But…). Yes, I noticed every “But…”. If you wish to participate, just follow the link to my other cyber-home.

some of the to-be-scribbled-on-blissfully bounty I received this Yule
(can’t wait to show you their insides)

49 comments:

  1. Now if this isn't yumminess in the form of words then I don't know what is!❤️ I was visualizing that nun reprimanding and delighted in your response (I wonder what would have happened if you said that out loud haha) there are many people in this world who think it appropriate to teach us how to live and who forget that we at certain (if not always) don't give a damn about what they think.

    I love and whole heartedly agree with 'balance and chaos must kiss deep and long to be happy'because lets face it .. we are bound to come across a few storms in life :) why not face them head on?

    Your determination shines through brightly in this poem, my dearest Magaly! 🌹 Sending you love, a bundle of hugs and healing energy. Thank you so much for adding your voice to the prompt!❤️

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    1. Thank you, Sanaa. Yay! for laughter. When I think about that horrible woman--she truly was--I do laugh and cringe, too, at times. But thank goodness, she got what she deserved... in the end.

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    2. And I'm sending you lost of love right back. My muse and I thank you for the yummy prompt.

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  2. I'm currently doing a systematic cull of things I don't need anymore and will donate to a local thrift shop. I am being ruthless.

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    1. I do a bit every year, but certainly not enough. In 2019, I will try very hard to be ruthless, too! Fingers crossed.

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  3. I had a similar conversation with my sister today. She shamed herself by the sheer volume of clothes she culled today. I mnean 48 bras or some such idiocy ! I prefer small but definitely not minimalism, My personality demands that I collect soul soothing things I am afraid but I do limit them. x

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    1. I don't buy a lot of new stuff, but I'm terrible at getting rid of anything... once they fall to my clutches. I still own dresses and shirts and shoes from my high school year (even from before that time). All right, so I still wear them. But that's not the point. There are things I should give away--for instance, no one (with only one waist) needs three hula-hoops, lol!

      I will never achieve minimalism when it comes to my overall life. I would never want to. I have every rock and stick and shell and wee note and delightfully weird gift... those who love and I love have given me over the years. I will never get rid of those treasures. They are memories I can touch. And I love those.

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  4. The culling...i am a happy minimalist from the get go, except for books and super sharp kitchen knives. I have three pair of shoes in a world that demands women go gaga over shoes. I still keep my journal in my head. My best friend has 50 pair of underpants! Lol. I can just imagine that poor mum's reaction to your remark about genitalia. I was sent to a private Quaker school and after 3td grade, fated well. After kicking heroin in university, cutting out sugar is a piece of cheese. Now if I could cut back on white flour ... and you are so right , balance ad chaos must learn to play well together otherwise, one indulges in endless eclipses and dozens of exclamation points! 😊

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    1. I collect books, hammers, rocks, blades, notebooks, and I truly appreciate a comfortable pair of boots. I don't care for shopping or for hoarding things that are useless for me--I own three custom made bras, which I use for exercise. I don't care for wearing a bras, and Nature must've known because she blessed me with no need for the things. Undies? I have never counted them, lol! But I doubt I've ever own 50. And that's the only piece of clothing--not true, socks, too--which I replace with new ones at least every couple of years.

      I eat bread a couple of times a year. I have never done any illicit drugs, so I have never had to give them up. I take three sugars with my coffee. And love it very much. I tried coffee without sugar for a few months and didn't like it. I stopped drinking coffee for a year--in solidarity to a friend who wanted to quit nicotine--and I was fine drinking tea.

      Maybe one day, you'll be able to cut back on white flower, if you want to... or need to... Still, I've notice that every now and again, it's best to hold on to certain vices. Not just because they are fun, but because they are wonderful at irritating the right people!!! πŸ€ͺ

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  5. My balance and chaos do unspeakable things to each other while I go about my business of living, and I'm rather glad about that. A naughty indulgence here and there doesn't break the world. I find it actually keeps me more disciplined in the long run.

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    1. I'm pretty sure your balance and chaos and mine are wonderful at the art of getting into all sorts of trouble together. No wonder we're always grinning. I'm right with you, in the bit about the occasional indulgence. If we let go of all the sweet little things that make us human, eventually we grow bitter... and start spewing said bitterness into the world. So, bring your rice and tea... I'll ready my coffee and a piece of Dominican cake--well, I can only have the cake once a year, so we might have to make arrangements, lol!

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  6. I love culling things. And I love things. I guess I'm a minimalist-maximalist. I get so obsessively and compulsively excited about certain things that I need a clear space to appreciate them in all their glorious-ness. (A little window into my madness. ;D)

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    1. I never thought about it in that way, but you're right! I don't go nuts over things most people go nuts over. But the things I love, I love deeply and almost obsessively--red and black things, books, hammers, blank notebooks, knifes, axes, rocks, random sticks, creepy dolls... lol. I don't even have to have many of them, but oh! how I bask in the gloriousness of the ones that make it to me. Great minds and all, I guess. 😍😍😍

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  7. the dance between the madness lies in knowing when to follow the heart and silence the mind, and of course, when to court the mind for the constant of a solid footing .... so slip the sugar into the brew, be mindful of what you do, choose wisely to dine and smile while you can, carry sweet wickedness hand in hand, and roll the dice when it comes to chance - sometimes one just knows when it's time to clear and let go, to make way for the dazzling, magical new ...

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    1. Indeed... when the mind and heart walk together and talk to each other, the rest dances as perfect as needed.

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  8. Mother Superior is indeed very fortunate that you did not declare your fascination with your genitalia ..Gasp ! In truth she would be concerned with you writing on your hems defacing your school uniform:)

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    1. I was the one who was fortunate, when it came to keeping my mouth shut about not fancying being as gender-less as an angel. You see, dearest Mother Mumm-Ra was made famous by being outed as one of the members of a group that "groomed" pre-pubecent girls and teenagers to be sold to predators. Sometimes, I wonder if writing on the inside of my skirt was what kept me safe. Because when Mother Mumm-Ra complained about it, and told the adult responsible for me that I would benefit from a "religious retreat", she was told no--I had already voiced my reservations about a nun who thought corporal punishment would keep a developing mind from questioning things that didn't make sense.

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  9. I won't discuss genitalia as I sit on the other side of the fence! However I have always found it hard to dispose of everything. This Christmas however I decided to give a choice of presents to the family of some significant books I had, some signed by their authors or of other note. In addition a whole box of box chocolates for those that felt short changed. I need not have worried as they were all soon scooped up and devoured!

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    1. You had me at chocolate. I haven't tasted good chocolate in soooo long. I must devour some chocolate in the summer.

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  10. Love the inner conversation with the nun. As for sugar there is a natural substitute that looks and tastes like it, called Xyla, made from a tree, no chemicals, zero calories.i love it.

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    1. When my chemist started looking for sugar substitutes for me, we tried Xylitol. It did unspeakable things to my digestive system. The same is true for most substitutes we, something about their molecular composition and my tummy not speaking to each other. So, I just went ahead and reduced my added sugar consumption to less than 20grms per day. I give myself a treat 3 times a year (after taking precautions). That has worked.

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  11. Come one ... if you skipped sugar, you might definitely end up perfect, and humans need room for (theoretical) improvement! ^^

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    1. You have been talking to my doctors and my Piano Man, haven't you!? According to them, if I give up my three teaspoons of sugar, they might have to share their worship of me with others, lol!

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  12. Oh, you’re another one who doesn’t believe in resolutions. I’m constantly being nagged at to declutter and minimalise, Magaly! I have fought against throwing out the things I love for such a long time and, thankfully, will not disappear under a pile of unworn clothes – I tend to stick with well-loved, well-worn things. It’s the books that will one day topple on me! I love the section about the nun and the notes in the margins and:
    ‘journaling
    in wild ink, my soul shall be
    deeply cleansed’!

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    1. Who wouldn't want to go that way? Buried under the stories that helped us live! I, too, hold on to well-loved things. Getting rid of them, when I don't have to, feels like I'm letting go of a part of what makes me me.

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  13. You made me laugh with your balance and chaos kissing. And you did a wonderful job with prose and verse to convey your "determination" to never get rid of anything. :D

    I, on the other hand, aim to be Ms Minimalist but I fall short. Girl's gotta have "enough" pairs of shoes, and just the "right" amount of books to read.

    But one thing we have in common, "must toss the sugar!!!!!"

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    1. I have made peace of making sure that things I don't need, but that are still useful, will continue their lives in the home of someone who can love them more often that I can. But some things--books, old marathon t-shirts, my blades and rocks--will have to be removed from stiff fingers, lol!

      I think I think of journals in the same way you think of shoes. MINE!!!

      My tummy (and the glory of becoming more vintage) has helped me with giving tossing most of the sugar. I've been down to fewer than 20grms of added sugar per day, since about 2013--I've gone sugarless for up to six months in between, too. I believe in moderation, but total tossing *hehehe* of sugar? Nope. I refuse!

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  14. You are the wildest, weirdest, most wonder woman I know!!! And your writing reflects that!! In all kinds of wonderful ways!! Hope the new year is the best yet!!!

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    1. Thank you so much, Annell. I shall delight in all those wonderful Ws. Happy New Year to you too!!!!!

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  15. Cackle, eat sugar, let your muse stay sharp tongued and wicked. I love your work and your view on life. Happy New Year!!

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    1. Cackles and sugar and sharp tongues, oh my! Couldn't help myself. And the feeling is mutual. Happiest New Year to you, too!

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  16. Such an enjoyable read, Magaly. A bit shocking in the middle too, you sneaked up while I was being lulled by the thinning (a feeble pun??) of the closest and the harping of the nun. But than nuns and meat freaks live in another world from mine. Your writer's world also.
    ..

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    1. Glad you enjoyed the piece, Jim. Thank you.

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  17. Bwahahahahaha.....CWS......(and may have snorted a couple or three times) For wicked women with amazing will power, we are sorely lacking when it comes to "minimalism" *having to push piles of "stuff" aside to open my laptop* Keep on Keeping on !!!!!!!!!!!
    XXX

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    1. I just burst into laughter, too. Because the moment I read your words about our lacking, I had to glance at my writing desk, which (at this moment) is loaded with boxes and hospital paperwork and some things I can't even identify. CWS, indeed!

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    2. And at our house we can't print.

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    3. It's a pandemic! 😁

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  18. Love this... we all try to clean out a (little) on the first day of the new year. Of course that means adding a few things as well, ha ha... I'm very much free of sugar in the coffee... but I'm nuts about nuts...

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    1. You've cleverly pointed out the downfall of decluttering. The moment I see space, it magically morphs into shelf for more books.

      I wonder if I will ever give up sugar in coffee. Everybody tells me that if I keep at it long enough, I will eventually not care for sugar in it. I've gone as long as 6 months, no joy.

      I totally understand nutty love.

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  19. I believe in the wisdom of brains.

    Me too, sister!

    I loved the way your thoughts flow from prose to poetry and back again. Such an inspiring and witty piece in all.

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    1. Brains are good for everyone. 😁

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  20. I went crazy on the 1st and 2nd, come Spring I will be wailing .. why in the name of all that’s holy, did I throw that away!
    Love everything about this.

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  21. I love those thoughts you kept to yourself, instead of sharing with a nun. Maybe the sugar is a substitute for those things you parted with, that took guts.

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    1. Thank you, Sara. I think some thoughts are best kept to ourselves, since sharing them with people who won't value (or take a moment to understand) them would be a waste. And I'm completely with you on the sugar--everyone should have a little something to delight in, after giving up so much.

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  22. A great sense of humor, knowing when to hold one's tongue and knowing when to tune someone out :) ... and surrounding oneself with beloved and used items is so very wise! It's how I like to think of myself!

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  23. I can't believe how many items I have donated in the past 3 years. I have sold alot too. It feels great! But, those items that are very near to my heart, aren't leaving! I love the way you write Magaly! LOL! Big Hugs!

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    1. I need to get better at the art of letting go. Being one-breasted might help a bit, since some clothes (tops and dresses) just won't do the transition. It will be a nice way to cleanse body and soul.

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